Secretly spreading whispers.

And I adore you in every tears you stream down on earth…
And I fancy your move in a perfect divination
And I feel breathless to see how you cleave the grey firmament
Singing a mermish lullabies chantings
When earth be your choir

And I love the way you make me feel
And I’m longing of you when the sun has a spiritless shine
And I tease you in my bed covered in my blanket
With a cup of hot coffee
And a good novel awaits here

When I can’t recall anymore how to express my sadness
I see of how you represent it, and all I can do is just stare at you
You are such an understanding thing to adore, rain…

*Tapi
betewe, gimana cara gw pulang kerumah yak? Scarra Kuningan terancam
banjir ginih, hiks… [Melihat pasrah keluar jendela kantor]

 Haruskah aku menjadi palsu?
Saat asli tidak lagi dihargai, maka palsu menjadi senjataku
Aku sedang memasang topengku sekarang
Cantik… Terbuat dari porselen

Dan akankah mereka mencintaiku?
Akankah mereka akan berhenti berbisik-bisik dibelakangku?
Akankah mereka menerimaku menjadi bagian dari mereka?

Baiklah.. Kalian menang!!
Aku telah memasang topeng palsuku
Inilah aku sekarang, tapi yang palsu… mohon diingat itu
Sedihnya aku harus mengalah pada ular berbuntut dan berlidah bercabang seperti kalian
Tapi inilah nyatanya… aku telah manjadi palsu, demi diriku, terutama demi kalian

Puas sekarang?!

She’s no longer can differentiate

The darkest truth from the whitest lies
From an oath she’s been taken
That will bound her until she dies
She made an unforgiven mistake
Neither she noticed nor she realized

And now she’s crawling under your mercy
Her creaky breath is chanting like the sound of death
Creating a dreadful yet astounding misery
That will linger forever in her memory
She is crying with blood streaming
Asking you hopelessly to revoke your curse over her

And she’s the angel broke her wings
She’s the Goddess lost her mightiness
She’s the fairy missed her magic wand
She’s the human disappeared her soul
A dark bride with a broken vow
A night queen wearing a crashed crown

She wanders with your eyes, your heart and your mind
She’s alive, though so empty inside
You strive her in solely darkness
Until she goes blind and none of her senses left
When the time comes in the coldness of the night
Her remaining shadows will beg your kindness to end her life

Will you let her been chased with her own death?
Playing around in the never ending labyrinth?
Like a little girl playing cheerfully under the rain
The meets her doom in the hand of furious thunderstorm
Her disaffected love be your long-lasted trauma
Ever since, your spell makes her the Lady of Anathema

The sky goes black every time I close my eyes
Such a defective silent attacks me in disguise
Cold winter cloud touches my skin
It washes away all my embracing sins
One yellowish little star is blinking
He smiles, he waves and now he’s calling
I wanna reach him with these decaying hands
Down here on earth and ask him to dance
And he will spark and I will glow
Keep the trace of passion that grow
A passion that once ever be a brokenhearted
That met her end before it even get started
My life has been a misery for too long
Warm smile of mine long has been gone
Empty is my soul, death is my dream
Hope to disappear along this cracking wind
And he is the falling star, my lucky charm
Hopping once or twice in the grip of my arm
He’s the light through the dark
Spreads his wings and flies like a white lark
He came to me with divining motions
He entered me who welcomed him with no resistance
I’m longing for him, reaching my hands in the air
Mourning his lights to fill me in despair
My love, my flickering little star
Stay with me, never get too far

My deathless sorrow gives me life

Yet inside I am empty and blind
But winter came like silent whispers
And gave me soul that is unbroken
Winter brought its majestic queen
Forever I am bounded to her love
I chained my will to her desires
Like a frail heart in heaven’s arms
Like a dying wish in an angel’s breath
Tonight she arrives in my dreams
With her pale face and embracing arms
Bringing dark kisses and death lullabies
Bringing hope and immortality
This void I am shackled to
Is inevitable and eternal
But her shadows clouded my soul
And saved me from my sorrow
And freed me from my curse
This cruel world is filled with such lies
Discontenting and dishonest and much despised
I fail to cease the monolith of sufferings
And in the end I lie in its confusion
But her divine silhouette kept me safe
From the vileness of this tyrannous place
Because home is nowhere to be found
And my sanctuary lies in her
And in her I find a goddess’s comfort

Created by: Mercurya Gemini
Photo: Bill Mack

Nadia is the name of this super-cute creature. I wish I could have a
daughter like this in the future. Oh Gosh I still can describe her face
perfectly. She’s just the real Betty Boop, isn’t she?

Bunyi hujan DESS DESS DESS !!!!

Gendang terlinga bergetar sampe kepala

Bunyi motor BOOM BOOM BOOM !!!!

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