Secretly spreading whispers.

Never thot it would end up this way

Kalo ga suka, TERIAK loe ga
suka. Kalo sakit hati, BILANG loe sakit hati. Kalo merasa ditinggal, TUNJUK
dengan JARI LO SENDIRI siapa yang ninggalin loe!! Jangan cuma bisa NANGIS,
WHINING2 / NGAMBEK tanpa penjelasan!! loe udah gede, bukan anak umur 3 tahun lagi!
Jadi cewe harus KUAT!!! Loe ngakunya metalhead, a dark Goth. Mana buktinya??!!!

 

PS: For YOU. Yeah you, I know u will
read this. Just like this? Udah segini aja nih, ngga ada perlawanan apa2? Cuma
bisa isi blog trus whining2 disitu? Gw sedih sist, gw sedih banget bisa
kejadian kaya gini. Gw sendiri awalnya gatau apa2. Tapi setelah berdiskusi sama
anak2, gw tau knapa. But it’s just from one side. Gw pengen denger langsung
dari mulut loe ADA APA sebenernya. itu juga kalo loe masih SUDI ngomong ma gw.
Sorry gw kasar, i’m so pissed, yet so sad that I coudn’t scream louder than
this. Knapa kita selalu berakhir kaya gini? While for me, everything
goes well with us?

WHY???

I Love You, Dee… But if u wanna go, then go…

Pic: Gothess & Goddess

Just another sweet memory of us

Addition!!!

All things have been resolved, but JUST between the two of us, not yet with the rest of the family

Siamo la BRIGATA ROSSONERA…Milan!…Milan!…Milan!

Sumpah, tadi malem bener-bener SINTING!!!

Milan

memang SINTING, Inzaghi emang SINTING!! Dan gw cinta mati dengan klub SINTING
ini….

Gimana engga, mereka merajalela,

Liverpool

dikasih dikit banget kesempatan
buat take control the ball. Dan gw mengalami pengalaman nonton yang
unforgettable banget.

Dimulai dari jam 11, gue
[Milanisti] dan Madam [Big Red’s Family] janjian mo nonton final Champion di
Brains Café, Kemang. Kita pergi dengan mobil temennya Madam yang semuanya
pendukung The Reds. Sebenernya gw agak deg-degan juga nonton di Brains, scara
itu acara nonbar kerjasama antara majalah Soccer, Brains Café dan Big Reds
Liverpool Official Fans Club. Udah jelas isinya pendukung The Reds semua. Pas
pertama nginjekin kaki di Brains, gw cuma liat 2 orang yang pake kaos

Milan

,
itu jg ditutupin jaket [takut gw rasa ditengah lautan kaos The Reds gitu]. Kaos
Milan gw sendiri ketinggalan dirumah, gw Cuma bawa pernak-pernik

Milan

kaya gantungan HP, tp kostum gw tetep merah-item [so dari awal udh byk
pendukung The Reds yang notice kalo gw Milanisti].

Gw ngambil tempat duduk [lesehan]
pas didepan layer big screen di tengah. Ternyata bener2 cuma gw Milanisti yang
duduk disitu!! The rest-nya pendukung

Liverpool

smua. Acaranya dimulai sama band dari Big Reds nyanyiin Mars2 Liverpool (sampe
lagu The Beatles juga). Riuh banget, dan mereka kompak banget [cukup kagum
dengan itu], tp gw stand still aja ditempat duduk gw. Ngga bereaksi, ga ikutan
nyanyi sama skali. Gw Cuma sibuk smsan sama Amor minta doa-nya moga2

Milan

menang dan bisa balas dendam malam itu.

Pas ada acara kuis gw mulai
panas.

Ada

satu Milanisti
diseret ke tengah stage dan rame2 di “Bhooo!!!”–in sama anak2 Big Reds. Bener2
nurunin mental itu Milanisti. Dalam hati gw, “Anjrit loe, beraninya treak2
dikandang sendiri, belom tentu loe bisa berani treak kaya gitu klo dikandang
Milanisti di Kemayoran. F*ck!!”

Pas pertandingan udah dimulai,
mereka berisiik banget. Dan gw mulai berasa dapet gangguan dari orang yang
duduk dibelakang gw. Entah kenapa dengan cw itu, duduknya ga bisa dieem melulu.
Sradak sruduk gitu [entah sengaja atau ga] sampe beberapa kali pinggul dan
kepala gw kena tepak. Yang biking gw kesel tu cw ga minta maaf, malah makin
menjadi. Pas gw nengok, ternyata itu cw berjilbab juga. Dalam hati,

“wah, mau perang nih cw ma gw.
Sekali lagi aja kaya gitu lagi, gw ladenin deh. Hasrat ribut gw lg tinggi”

Bener aja, pinggul gw kena
tendang kakinya lagi, pas gw nengok sinis ke dia, eh dia malah senyum cunihin
gitu. Anjrot…. Baru mo gw ladenin ribut, eh

Milan

nge-golin!! Gw ga tahan lagi akhirnya gw bediri [ditengah-tengah lautan
pendukung The Reds yang nganga ga percaya] dan teriak2 sampe serak. Habis itu
gw langsung disinisin gitu sama orang2 disekeliling gw. Akh, the hell with
them…gw cuek aja terus tepuk tangan dan teriak2. Tiba2 cw yang dibelakang gw
itu langsung nepak kaki gw supaya gw minggir&ngga ngalangin pandangan dia
ke big screen. Hampir aja itu cewe mo gw ajakin ribut. Sialan banget…
Mentang-mentang kalah kok bisanya sirik aja. Ngga sportif banget pendukung The
Reds ini. Payah!!

Pas gol kedua gw ngga bediri,
Cuma gw teriak kenceng banget [dan perlahan-lahan gw mendengar ada nyanyi2an
Mars Milanisti dinyanyiin rame2 di pojok café. Thank God, milanisti udh pada
berdatangan. Ngga sadar gw ikutan nyanyi dan air mata gw tiba-tiba nitik. Gw
berdoa dalam hati, “Allah, I just wanna make sure that Maldini & Costacurta
receive the best gift for their last match here. I just wanna honored them as
the most loyal player for

Milan

,
ever…”

Cewe rese itu bener2 bikin nafsu ribut gw
tinggi banget. Heran..knapa semua orang beraninya teriak2 dikandang sendiri.
Tapi pas ditaro dikandang musuh bisanya cuma mengkerut. Blom tentu juga cowo2
yang super gila disini bisa segila kalo mereka dikandang Milanisti. Jago
kandang aja udh berasa keren.

Cape

deh

…

Well, secara keseluruhan gw
bangga banget bisa jadi minoritas orang yang nyengir seneng pas keluar dari
Brains café dimana hampir sisanya keluar dengan berlinangan air mata. Entah
kenapa menurut gw nonton bola dikandang musuh justru membawa atmosfir dan
hasrat tertentu yang beda banget klo nonton dengan sesama tiffosi.

siamo la BRIGATA
ROSSONERA…

Milan

! …

Milan

!
…

Milan

!

Leoni armati
stiam marciando

siam

la FOSSA DEI

LEON

…
dei..

leon

..

leon

..

leon

…

leon

…

leon

…

siam

la FOSSA DEI LEON!!!
sangue! violenza!
FOSSA DEI LEONI !!!

Milan

!

Milan

!

Milan

!
Luglio agosto interista
sogna sotto l’ombrellone
tricolore coppe varie
ma a settembre il campionato iniziera’
e come l’anno scorso
e come l’anno prima
il nostro chiaccherone
continuera’ a sognare
quel tricolore che non vincera’…

Sun semper chi
me dan del rembambi’
seguo sempre il Milan
che piacere mi da
questa vita ultrà

Finché vivrò
io sarò un Rossonero
io sarò un Rossonero
e per il Milan canterò, combatterò
finché vivrò
io sarò un Rossonero…

Noi odiamo la Juve
noi odiamo il

Verona

noi odiamo la Roma
Forza magico

Milan

!!

O mia bela Madunina
che te brilet de luntan
tuta d’oro e piscinina
ti te dominet

Milan

Sot a ti se viv la vita
se sta mai cui mani in man
canten tucc luntan de Napoli se mor
ma po vegnen chi a

Milan

Terun!

Buat MIlanisti
yang lain… selamat merayakan kemenangan atas pembalasan dendam. HAIL

MILAN

!!!

- g -

Hopeless Soul…

He skulking out for the sun to rise, sitting down the
aisle with a cigarette in his right hand and a black rose in the other hand.
His eyes are never to rest, his mind is never to gratify and his heart is never
to cease, until he finds the veritable mean of forfeiting. He tries to see
everything beyond some logical reasons so he can obtain a new mindset of his
own about how things can ensued him. A blackening core – deep inside him – has
been wounded badly. He had trying to find a blaming so he could claim it as
somebody else’s defection. He can’t stand seeing his own reflection when he
yelled at the mirror, asking about whom to blame for his own tricky mean game.

 

And
now he tries to find the justification to what he has done, when he finally
recognized how many preys have falling down caused by his crave upon a black
pearl. He finally wins it… A black pearl, which actually can never be owned.
And his winning has to be paid by the loss of a red diamond. It slipped out
from his hands, down running with the sunset.

 

The
sunset that he can only see from the distance…

The
hopeless soul is firing down his cigarette with blood tears streaming down,
counting days until his doom comes.

 

He
loses…

 

- g -

 

 

 

 

Sleepyhead walkin the dawn

Red full moon….

Saw things upside-down

An hour phone-talk in the nite

Severe headache

In the midlle of nowhere in the darkness

Bizzare emotional condition

Hardly asleep

Tired mind

Sleepyhead walkin in the dawn…

See things in obscurity

Missing my mom badly that it hurts me folly

Hhhh…. I had a diluting morning

I need a hug
…..Mom…..

- g -

Say goodbye to MU, yuukk!!

Kemaren sempet sedih
karena

Chelsea

dibantai

Liverpool

dalam adu pinalti.

Tapi dini hari tadi….

Gilardinho, Kaka
& Seedorf memberikan hadiah
terindah buat gw

3 - 0 Jooooo!!!!!!!

Well, time to say goodbye to MU and their dreams to make the all-England final *waving
hand*

Now… IT’S TIME TO
MAKE A VENGEANCE to

Liverpool

this final !!!

HAIL

MILAN

!!!!

- g -